Broken Car, Broken Heart
Mayzie was broken into. Someone smashed in my back window with a chunk of cement, stole all of my CD's, including the CD (yelling) case, and if that's not bad enough, took the case off of my ignition, attempted to start the car and ended up shoving a piece of metal in the ignition so that I couldn't get the key in. Broken window, broken ignition and a broken heart, twice over. A lot has happened in the past couple days that has really changed me, and not for the better. I've been shown first hand on two occasions this weekend how things can fall apart right infront of your eyes. I've been shown that even though you think something is safe, that something is sacred, you have to ensure that it is not only you who feels that way. I've learned to watch out, to be careful and to think harder. I've been put in my place twice this weekend, whether it was by the acts of a stranger or not. I'm frightened, I'm hurt, I feel unsafe and I don't feel as grounded as I used to. I'm still in complete shock from the happenings of yesterday and today - it seems like a dream. A nightmare. I can never be sorry enough.
Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road.
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go.
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why.
It's not a question but a lesson learned in time.
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs and still frames in your mind.
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time.
Tattoos and memories of dead skin on trial.
For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
I smile, I don't complain....
Life is never what you planned.
Life is moments you can't understand, and that is life.
I'm holding to the ground as the ground keeps shifting.
Trying to keep sane as the rules keep changing.
Keeping up my head as my heart falls out of sight.
Everything will be all right.
Everything will be all right.
But I don't know when.
...you know the rest.
Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road.
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go.
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why.
It's not a question but a lesson learned in time.
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs and still frames in your mind.
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time.
Tattoos and memories of dead skin on trial.
For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
I smile, I don't complain....
Life is never what you planned.
Life is moments you can't understand, and that is life.
I'm holding to the ground as the ground keeps shifting.
Trying to keep sane as the rules keep changing.
Keeping up my head as my heart falls out of sight.
Everything will be all right.
Everything will be all right.
But I don't know when.
...you know the rest.
posted by Rae at 1:50 AM
6 Comments:
Rachel. I am not sure if you know or if I've ever expressed it, but getting to know you lately has been absolutly amazing. I remember coming into this program and being completely daunted by you and all of your talents. But then being unable to hate you because on top of everything you are an amazing person and friend. I love the times that we have spent together and I ache knowing how down you are lately. Being with you yesterday and seeing your heart break was almost unbearable. I love you babe so much and I've only just gotten to really know you. What also makes you so amazing is that even though you are so hurt right now, you still gave me the best advice that anyone could have. I finally called Jeff last night. So thank you, you are stronger then you might think. And I'll be here to hold you up whether you need me or not. Love and hugs babe, Leah
p.s. Jeff indirectly thanked you too. www.jefftheskibum.blogspot.com
I'm sorry for your broken heart... poor little Mayzie. Wow people can be so unpredictable and careless. On the other hand, you have a core group of friends full of sooooo much support; and yeah I've never MET met you, but I'm slowly inching my way in there... ever so sneakily... ever so cleverly... heee heee (I didn't mean to rhyme the heee heee, but it's a plus)
CleverNess
Oh my God darling, I'm SO SORRY I didn't read your blog before I called you. I just told you all about the letter then had to go. I feel so bad. I want to be with you. You need a hug.
Ugh... I feel your broken heart, and I'm two provinces over.
I love you SO much, Rachel. Please call me whenever you need anything at all. ANYTHING. My phone is always open. As well as my heart, and my arms for that matter.
Feel better soon. I'll be there before you know it. (March 1st)
That sucks hard. I am really sorry about your car and stuff. When my window was smashed earlier this year at least it was an accident not some fucktard trying to steal it...but my car is also a piece of junk (but i still love it). I hope that you are ok, i know kinda what it's like to have a piece of property vandalized,it totally sucks. Hope that the rest of reading week doesn't suck for you. *big Hugs*
Ok. so i was watching Home Improvement and they were al sitting around a table and TIm ran into an old girlfriend of his and they were all talking and the conversation went
Tim: Stacey Louis
Stacey: Tim Taylor
Al: AL BORLAND!
It was such a Donkey comment I had to write you and tell you before i forgot! Love ya darlin.
Dear Best Friend Of Life:
1) Blog a new blog because we are all tired of commenting on this one, I mean really I am number 6! :D
2) I haven't talked to you in two days and I am dying to call you but it is early early and we all know that you, my little pooper love your sleep.
3) I am curious as to which emotion you are on right now, cause we got past confusion and hurt, then it was anger... If it's still anger I can cure that. I mean I already told you I'm good at beating people up and stealing their lunch money. But if we've moved on let me know and I will adapt to your own personal needs.
4) Why in the world could anyone ever think of you as less than the most amazing, talented, compassionate, thoughtful, and fun loving (not to mention loving) girl in the entire world. If this were a court case I think it would be highly likely that the plaintiff could plead insanity.
5) I miss you out here, it's not the same. I'll be back soon.
ps. let's stay in bed for all of easter break, k?
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