For The Longest Time

Hey everyone.
Sorry I haven't updated in SO long. I don't really have an excuse, seeing as I haven't really been doing much of anything lately.
Auditioned for the Fringe Show that GMac is doing and I got the part of Harpo Marx. Random huh? But Jay, I was reading some stuff and we have some good scenes together I think. I guess all that chemistry in our tap combination payed off. Go 7 years of BFFF, huh? At least I won't have lines to memorize. Congrats to everyone else who made it into this hilarious show...we're going to have a rockin' time, I just know it.
What else has happened....spent way too much on clothing lately, that's for sure. I got some "long" shirts (from the 80's..shut up Jay), and some fun earrings and bracelets. This is interesting, I know. Spent a few hours at Leah's (and Dee's) apartment today taking some random pictures. That was a very good time. Today was HUGE...we went to Ikea for a few hours, then went to Evan's to see his new hair (lord was that a surprise) then went shopping for even MORE hours at WEM, then went out for dinner, then went to Leah's, and now, here I am, exhausted and almost in bed.
Nothing all that exciting that I can think of to blog about, I just thought I really should blog because I haven't for a while. Saw the new Star Wars. It was alright...nothing like the last 3 though, that's for sure. Saw the last 2 1/2 hours of ROTK last night...cried, of course. I have seen that movie 8 times, and I bawl everytime. No one cares about Sam, have you noticed? And he's so cute and pudgy. I love Sam. ("I love lamp").
Finished Sociology and I have to go check my mark sometime soon.
I'm tired. No more blogging. I'll do more later when I can actually remember what's happened in the last little while.

I'm addicted to Frosted Flakes.
I have a bowl before I go to bed quite often.
I'm curious as to whether too much frosted flakes will make me diabetic.
I don't think they will, in fact I know they won't, but I'm a hypo,
and this time I was curious.
Just in case you were curious.

The Next Ten Minutes

So I'm really supposed to be studying for my final in Sociology right now, but I just glanced over my "things I need to know for the short answer" part of the test, answered them in my head, then checked the answers and I was right. It's really not that difficult - it's almost common sense with a few terms thrown into the mix. You really can't be wrong either, because you're making your own opinions and stating your own views. It's not a problem.

Star Wars tomorrow bih-chuzz! Please let me know if you're coming so we know who to wait for. So far it's some of my Vic friends and Leah (rock out THAR lady) and anyone else who would want to come is definitley invited, even though I can't spell that word. We're meeting at SilverCity at 8:30pm tomorrow for the 10:00pm show. If that one's sold out, or the line is already stupid, then there's another show at 10:30 and at 11:00. So we're set. Please come - this movie is supposed to be amazing. Hell, effin George Lucas chose to open it on a THURSDAY (that pompus bastard) just like he's done for the other 2. So this one had better be good. Scott says it is and I believe him.

Vic's grad is tonight. Their grad song is For Good. From Wicked. Mine and Dee's song. Clayton said that the girls who sang it sucked. And that we should have done it, Dinkle. We will someday.


I've been re-decorating my room in my head.
I want to put more pictures up,
of my friends and movies.
I need to get this clutter out of here.
Namely the books.
Just in case you were curious.

Free For Anything Fancy

CLAYTON HAS AN AUDITION TO BE ON WILL AND GRACE AS WILL'S LONG LOST GAY BROTHER. 8 EPISODES, FULL SEASON. AND HE GETS TO AUDITION WITH WILL HIMSELF. IN NEW YORK. AT THE END OF JUNE. AAAH! *but we won't talk about it Clay* LOVE LOVE.

on a more calm and boring note...here's the Rachel news...

I want a new template, I've decided. This one is really cool and all, but I'm finding it dark. I was just on Aniceto's blog and I love that template, but now it's his so I can't have it. Idunno, I want something more happy, but not plain...I hate it when it's just plain.

I have to call people about STAR WARS for Friday. Effin excited.

ALMOST JAY'S BIRTHDAY! Can you believe it kiddo? You're almost 19! I've known you since you were 13 and 3/4. This is strange.

I hope we can still get tickets.
This blog was weird and not like my usual ones.
I found a funny Irving Berlin song for my audition.
Cole and I went out for lunch today.
I didn't study at all for my final on Friday.
I'm fancy free, and free for anything fancy.
(I don't even know what that means).
Just in case you were curious.

When You're Laughing

Evan's birthday was a total success. That is what I was talking about in my last blog - some of my old friends and I surprised Evan and took him out for a night on Whyte. Jen, Vikki and I went to the Buck Or Two and picked up some shnazzy gear for Evan to wear, namely a TON of Mardi Gras beads to pass around to all our friends, a cowboy hat, a sheriff's badge, a flower hula bra, a wand and last but not least, a pink fluffy crown that said Birthday Princess on it. When Evan was surprised by us, he most definitly was surprised. He took off running into his ravine and when he finally came back up, we bombarded him with our little presents. He changed into a pink shirt just for the occasion.
Things weren't awkward at all. The first couple of minutes maybe, but then it was back into the hilarity that was always there. I don't know where we stand at the moment, but things are looking up from a few months ago, that's for sure. I hope we can patch things up some way or another because I'm feeling quite lonely without the friendship - I feel detached from my "past life" and I don't like that feeling at all. I don't know who will or should bring it up, but I hope it will be brought up soon. Some things need to be settled. But the world sure felt right being around everyone again. As soon as we can get EVERYONE together, then everything will be even more right. But, in the words of the lovely Victoria, "last night was bliss". And I agree. Feels like home, bih-chuzz.

I'm missing my Dee Dee. Love you babe.

School is almost over and I'm very excited about that! Then it's 4 weeks off and then back to do my other elective - PS> electives next year can kiss my butt. My focus will be on theatre, and I'm mighty happy about that.

Happy Birthday, Cole!!
It's almost Vikki's birthday!
Then it's almost Jay's birthday!
Then it's almost Kloe's birthday!
Then it's almost Jen's birthday!
Then it's almost my birthday!
J/k you bastards.

Diet Dr Pepper lies.
It said that it tastes the same as normal Dr. Pepper.
Nope, it doesn't.
I can for sure taste the difference.
Maybe it's just because Dr. Pepper is my favorite drink,
and if you eff with it, I'll know.
I know, Diet Dr. Pepper...
I know.
Just in case you were curious.

WASP (the bug not the people)

Woke up this morning (yeah it was morning I know that's kind of weird for me) and I went downstairs, made myself some toast, called Vikki, was wandering around my kitchen as we were talking, and lo-and-behold THERE WAS A WASP ON THE WINDOWSILL. Now I know that sounded pathetic, but I have never been, nor ever will be a fan of the flying buzzing insects that enjoy to hurt me. Funny that. I know they're smaller than me, and I know that I could just take a shoe and throw it at them and more than likely miss but still have a chance to run away, but they're out to hurt me. And I don't enjoy that. So I blockaded off the kitchen (a.k.a. closed the doors, put towels down to cover the gap between the door and the floor and then made signs), but my mother is fearless. She went in. I got the Raid. I closed the door to my room promptly after that. Exciting morning.
Today will either be fun, fun and awkward, or just awkward and MORE awkward. (Thanks for the spelling, Jay). We'll see how that pans out. More news on that later.
These last few days have been full of school, Pilates, eating better, watching TV and not really talking to anyone except briefly on MSN and a fun phone conversation.
I hope everyone is enjoying their summertime.
Thanks very much for the comments on my last blog. They were really comforting, that's for sure. It's good to know that I'm not insane and that other people have gone through what I have. (Thanks Neesa).
Have great days everyone and I'll post about the awkwardness of today on a blog tomorrow.

Star Wars is coming out soon.
Kendra, Mel and Melissa have a show with Tim right now.
We should go see both of these things.
THARs, I miss you.
These sound like good get-together opportunities.
My back hurts.
Just in case you were curious.

Summertime...And The Livin' Is _____

Fill in the blank. For me, it's semi-easy - what with summer school and all - and it's beginning to feel semi-lonely as well. I'm not bored, I don't really seem to get bored, I'm just starting to feel lonely. In some ways I've been replaced, even if it's not fully admitted I know I have been - sometimes roads seem to split at the weirdest of times - and now that all of my friends are back in town from their respective wonderful post-secondary institutions, I find it hard to see them because they're getting jobs (weird I know) and I'm still in school and attempting to study and do well. It's strange. It just hit me today after a conversation I had with Evan. Back to before, that's all I can really say. Things feel like they're changing and I don't know if I'm going to like what is coming my way in the future, and by future I mean next year and maybe even in a week or so. I don't know how I'm going to handle things, and I always like to know in advance how I'm going to deal with potential situations. But this time, I'm kind of stumped, and I really don't like it. I want to know what my decisions are going to be and I want to have a more concrete concept in my head of what next year holds. But I don't. And it might be tough, but I don't want a repeat of some aspects of this year, that's for sure. I apparently don't know how to handle myself as well as I used to, or maybe, I never actually handled myself all that well, but I thought I did. Some things came out of the woodwork and they were really not positive this year(to make a joke for someone like Jaysen, yes, maybe they could have been termites) and they really hit me. I realized that things went wrong because of me, not because of anyone else. This happened on several occasions. Honestly, I always thought I was in control of myself and that I was doing a good job, but I guess I wasn't. This doesn't make sense, but a lot of the times my blogs don't make sense to you guys, but that's alright. It's a code, and maybe that's fun. I don't know.
This blog sounds depressed and maybe it is a little. Things in my life are truly changing and I can't get a grasp on them. It feels like a lot of things are slipping away but all I want to do is be alone. Yet, I'm lonely at the same time. How does that work?

This isn't to say that I'm not grateful for my friends. I love you guys. A ton. And I am so incredibly grateful for all of the fun that we have had this year, because there's been a HELL of a lot of it. And it's weird because even though we saw each other 2 days ago, I miss you all already, and it feels way longer. I guess that's what THAR's all about - being attatched at the hip.

I need to work harder at life.
I need to call and email people.
I have always been terrible at that.
But it doesn't mean that I'm not thinking about you.
But so what, right?
I should get off my ass and do something about missing people.

I love you guys.
Just in case you were curious.
(And I'm sorry if you were).