Fallin'

Not gonna lie...I'm actually fucking exhausted. My feet hurt so much that I wish that they would fall off and die. And I'm in a bad mood ontop of it. All day I've been in a strange mood and I've tried to not let it get to me, but now that I'm home and relaxed, it's coming out in full force. It's just shitty that people take things out on each other....well, take things out on some people. Pretty shitty, and yet very understandable. It's not like I've never taken something out on someone before. It's just shitty to be the one who's taking it all. But, yet again, very understandable. What kind of friend are you if you don't let people be bitchy? It's human nature - you gotta let it flow. (Like going pee, really. Don't hold it in or you'll get an infected bladder. The same goes with bitching, only you'll get an "infected" state of mind rather than an infected bladder if you keep it inside). As long as the other person cares enough to confront you afterwards, that's all that matters. (Even if you're in a bitchy mood yourself and don't completely feel like hearing it at that point in time, it still makes all the difference. Haha). Getting back to the things that are shitty...it's shitty that I'm not normal all of the time because I hate making people worry when they don't need to and I did that earlier today. Idunno, I was just too tired to explain anything and I didn't know what I would be explaining even if I were to explain it. Explain. There I said it again. Just know that I'm always embraceable, even if I don't seem like it. For certain people, I always am. Nothing was wrong earlier today, I was just dreading the day to come I think. Well, dreading is pretty harsh - more like knowing how much work would have to be done today. There were some up sides to today for sure though - I got to help Janice when she was figuring out a new rhythm for one of the scene changes (being asked to play something for Janice on the piano so that I can help her out was an awesome compliment and SO much fun...not that I played it all that well at first, but I still helped!). Little moments were wonderful today too. But too much 'fighting' I think, even though it's always sarcastic. On the other hand, it's fun at times too.
Just actually so tired. So much pain. Need to sleep.


Love will keep us together.
Just in case you were curious.