I Want A Party With Roomfulls of Laughter

"When it rains, it pours"...one of my favorite sayings because I experience it often. It's strange how life can be a desert one minute and an ocean the next: you feel as though you can see everything and know what's coming, how it will affect you and how you will deal with it... then all of a sudden, you're swamped with things you're not prepared for, too many things start happening all at once and you don't know where to focus. Desert = seeing life, Ocean = random shit (like fish, for the sake of metaphor) coming at you and not knowing which way to turn. Why are the only surprises that ACTUALLY surprise me the ones that make me confused and upset and a total mess? I'm not for it. I would like a healthy mixture of control and surprises...GOOD surprises...which, more often than not, won't happen.
I made the title of this blog what it is for a few reasons. #1 it never happens; my parties always turn into drama-fests because none of my friends get along and I hate it. #2 I'm obsessed with the Harry Connick Jr. CD that Jay let me burn from him #3 I want my life to be a bit easier for a while. Surprises and drama have filled it quite constantly, whether it be collected in my thoughts or whether they appear in my everyday life; I'm ready to visit the desert. I want things back the way they used to be. I want to feel the way that I used to feel - secure, whole, not worried about the future. Going back to school would help that, yes, but going back to the basics would help that more. I hope you know what I'm talking about.

Settling on one thought right now would change everything. Both have their consiquences. I don't know which to choose and I don't know if I will choose either. I hate sitting on the fence - it truly is very uncomfortable.
I need to know whether it's worry or true.

In every job that must be done there is an element of fun.
Except for tomorrow....c'mon Starbucks...
Just in case you were curious.