Do Somethin'

Just sitting here after work. Just about to go to the gym. Just felt like a blog change. Just realized that that was the best title for my blog, considering my tag at the end of each of my posts. Just realized how tired I am. Just thought I would post.
Just in case you were curious.

Sundown

Last night was strange; yes we went to the Roost, of course, but that's not the part of the story that's out of the ordinary. We went to a house party at about 11:30ish before the Roost and on our way there, a random guy on the street almost got into my car. The Hubbys and I took two cars to go to the house party and as we stopped at a red light, a guy came right up to my passenger window, knocked on it and said "Hey would you like some company?". Thank God the light turned green right away so that we could all drive off (with Clayton YELLING at this guy from the passenger side of Joshy's car). It might not sound like much, but I was shaking for a couple of minutes after that. I don't know what I would have done if the light hadn't turned green right then. I locked the doors, but the guy was just so close to me, I couldn't handle it. I don't know what would have happened - it's a creepy thought. Just make sure that you have a very tall gay man yelling at the creepy guy that's harassing you, not to mention the get-away driver of the yelling gay friend who hates confrontation, so he's sure to get the hell out of there.


I've been waiting for August since April.
Fringe time. Home time.
So many good things in one month.
Oh how August will fly by.
Just in case you were curious.

Inaudible Melodies

I'm an insomniac. I am quite content right now, listening to Jack Johnson in my room and finally deciding to blog. I'm not sure what I'm blogging about...right now, it's just something to do because even though I have been on the go since 6am, I'm wide awake. Again, I'm an insomniac. I can feel myself getting tired, but I know that if I even attempt to get into bed right now, I'll just lay there and think like I always do. Think about the world, about my friends, about work, about crazy situations, about daydreams (I think that even though it's night, daydreams can still be referred to as such, because otherwise they are nightdreams, which really is just a longer way of saying a dream...what the hell am I talking about? Anyone? Feel free to leave me your 2 cents. It's kind of a cute topic...daydreaming and spacing out, that is. I'm known for spacing out and some of my friends often catch me doing it, Aniceto in particular...and Joel...and some people have told me that I will randomly squint my eyes into a little bit of a glare, which is something that is completely unintentional. Funny that. What do you daydream about? Do you space out often? Now I'm curious, so please, friends, fill me in). That was a long bracket. See? This is what goes on in my head during the night - a whole hell of a lot of nothing.
My world is starting to change around me and it's fun and disarming and uncomfortable all at the same time. People are growing up, growing out, showing new sides, showing NO sides, being present yet absent at the same time in some cases and in others, being absent yet present.
Friends, I really don't know what I'm talking about. There is nothing all that substantial about this blog, I'm sorry to say. Just the ramblings of an insomniac who can't stop listening to music and thinking about nothing and everything at the same time.

Go to www.nexopia.com, find the Search by Username section and look up StarryTurtle. You'll find yet another page where I live out my insomnia.
P.S. I now know what "jewish" is in sign language - this just adds a new level to my sign language skills...so many jewish options...


Go to bed.


When you move like a jellyfish, rhythm don't mean nothin' -
You go with the flow and you don't stop.
An insomniac + a "narcaleptic" = 28 days.
Just in case you were curious.

Sometimes When I Get Tired, I Wanna Be Alone

Not gonna lie, I'm really not all that happy right now. I can hear the fireworks from downtown and I realized how I never get to see fireworks anymore...or I haven't seen them for a long time it feels like. How strange is that? The fact that I'm sitting here and missing fireworks tells me that I'm exhausted and in a weird mood and not really wanting to go out. But I am going out...to a Canada day party that happens every year and that is always a lot of fun...but I'm not in the mood for some reason. Maybe I just need to drink. I probably do. But I also think that I need to go to bed. Do you ever have that feeling where your eyes are so heavy and then your breathing starts to slow down and before you know it, your head is tilted really strangely at whatever you look at because you don't have the energy to lift it up again? That's where I am right now.
I think it's a combination of being tired and feeling really lonely. I mean, I have AMAZING friends, don't get me wrong...I absolutely love them to death...but I just wish that everyone was here. I wish that so much. It's strange that it's getting more difficult and not easier, considering it's 45 rather than 65. But it really is getting more painful. That's why I'm in this mood...I'm exhausted and missing one piece to my cutlery set.



Some days I need to change my world; one desire fills this empty void.
Sometimes when I get tired, I wanna be alone.
The days pass uninspired, I sleep like a stone...
Tonight I wanna be saved by you - I wanna be lost in you.
Not the same song, but a damn good one none the less.
Just in case you were curious.