Follow Through

I'm gearing up for a reflective blog....but I think that that blog is best suited for closer to the end of 2006...which, scarily enough, is very soon. That will be a long blog and hopefully it will be one that everyone enjoys reading, because a lot has happened this past year and a lot continues to happen. New plans growing, old plans dying...the same goes for friendships I've noticed. That's one of the main things that has changed in this past year....so much shifting, so much re-evaluating...yeah, my end of 2006 blog will be a long winded one, that's for sure. Even lately I've been reading through my old blogs and the old blogs of my Sweet Ones (listed on the right hand side of the page) and realizing how much has changed. Haha I've also realized that sometimes I speak in too much code for even me to handle....in some of those blogs I have no clue what the HELL I'm talking about! Then I try to remember, I try to disect them and I come up with..."I THINK that's what I meant by that" or "I THINK that's who that was about"....but I can't remember all of the time. Maybe next year I'll be less secretive. Ah, who am I kidding...I love writing like that. But maybe next year I'll make myself footnotes so I can remember what I'm being so secretive about.
Can I please tell you something that has left such a huge impact on me? The Sarah Slean concert. I'm not even lying. Sam and I briefly touched on it the other day. She said "Is your life still changed by the concert?" and I whole-heartedly replied "yes"....because it was....and I don't know why. Maybe it was the simplicity of it, and the beauty of it. Her songs were magic that night, as lame as that sounds...but they were. I've heard them all before, many many times, but to hear just her and the piano, to see just her, the piano and the simple lighting, to be able to hear a pin drop in the theatre (except when we were singing along)...I don't know what it was about that night, but it's still with me. Maybe it was the fact that I was with friends who I haven't been with for a long time, and we were all loving an artist that helped bring us together a few years ago. I couldn't imagine going with anyone else and if Daneel and Brennan hadn't been there, the night wouldn't have been complete. Sarah Slean will always remind me of Daneel and the piano and the late nights and endless tapings of Sweet Ones. When we shared it all with Brennan, it brought the 3 of us that much closer together.
I feel at loose ends right now, yet tied down (in a good way). Things are feeling more up in the air, I'm triple booking myself all the time, I'm finding new lives, I'm still with the old lives and I'm wanting to move on from others. I have a need to break free from some aspects of myself, but a fear of breaking away from my norms.....which is very normal. But I need to break away in some respects and several people have told me this. Branch out....just do it....I need to or I will be "trapped" for the rest of my life. "Trapped" is harsh...contained is better. Contained. No more. I'm sure I've blogged about that before...maybe that'd be a good clue to do something about it, hey?
Ok I just said that I'd save my long winded blog for later in the year and closer to 2007. Apparently I was lying....and I feel a lot more long winded blogs coming before the end of the year. I could be wrong and lazy...it's happened before.


Sunflower seeds take over all the other flavours that they surround.
I just had trailmix and all I could taste were the sunflower seeds.
Not the cranberries, nor the raisins.
I love fruit in things.
Just in case you were curious.