Actually had a date last night - I can't remember the last time I went on a legitimate date because every other guy I've "seen" or "been involved with" has been a friend first and so everything was just hanging out and spending time together, rather than an actual date. It went pretty well; the guy was very nice and funny and there were no awkward silences and we laughed a lot, that's important. He was great, but I'm not sure if I felt any sparks, but then again, it was a first date and it's pretty hard to feel sparks when you're making conversation about each other's lives. There are sparks, however, but not with this one. The one with sparks really intrigues me. I don't know what makes sparks and what doesn't, but I do know when a relationship, or friendship, or accquaintance, or whatever you want to call it, has sparks, and when it doesn't. There's a possibility of sparks with one, and definite sparks with another. I just have a feeling that "sparky" will end up being in the friendship circle, rather in the dating one, even though that's not what I want and it doesn't seem to be the direction he's heading. If he asks me out, then it'll all be downhill from there. So, here's hopin'. I'll just actually fight for it this time because I'm tired of being so let down because I never fight for it. At the bar, with Trevor (that's the other one), I fought for it because there were a couple other girls that were trying to catch his eye, but we had been dancing for a couple of hours together already and whenever I got back to the dance floor from the washroom or the phone or whatever, I made a point to bee-line to him to shun those other girls out. Haha, Brad noticed some major attitude from one of the girls because I won, so HA. But, it just goes to show you, or me, rather, that if I actually make an effort, something will come of it. Hmmm what a novel idea.



They're playing some really awful 80's music right now.
My gum is totally dead in my mouth.
The radio is about a foot away from my left hand.
The gum, as I said before, is in my mouth.
I'm not changing the station, nor am I spitting the gum.
This tells you how lazy I am right now.
Just in case you were curious.