My New Philosophy
Things that I've recently decided:
It's ok if I don't please everyone; things are forgiven, forgotten and we move on. This is a difficult realization for me because I have always been one that needs to please everyone. It's virtually impossible, however, because I have a wonderful group of friends who all have different needs. What is important is that I feel confident in my decisions and my actions and that way, I won't feel guilty or unreliable.
The past is just as important as the present and the future. I have loved (and lived in) the past a lot over the years, but I never really focused on it blending into the present. (This is something that I know will not make sense to me in a few weeks, but I'm still going). What is important is that I honor the past, but don't live in it. Now I say "honor" it because I don't want to attempt to re-create what happened or what was felt in the past; I don't want to press the memories. Instead, I want to listen to the past and learn from it. Just because there was a jump in time doesn't mean that everything was forgotten.
When opportunity comes knocking, don't run away. It's happened a few times now - I haven't felt like doing something the moment that it was presented to me, so I push it aside. Stupid. I have learned that you never know what will happen and that I should try everything with an open mind. What is important is that I get as many experiences as I can, open myself up to anything that comes my way and see what happens. If I never try, I'll never know.
If I'm actually not ready, don't force it. I have learned when to push myself and when I'm just not ready for certain things. Some people say that every experience is a good one, but if my heart isn't into it at all, if I honestly have no interest, if doing something will not make me happier, then I don't see the point. There is a delicate balance between apathy and being uninspired and I am starting to see the difference.
When one door closes, another one opens. There have been a few major disappointments for me in the last few months but instead of dwelling, I let myself be upset for a little while and then I moved on. I saw one door closing but then I looked around and realized how positive the change could really be. I knew how wonderful of a change it would be for one and for a while I was just focussing on what I would do next. Then I got over it and got re-motivated. It felt wonderful. What is important is that I didn't let myself be consumed by the disappointment and that I turned it around.
Opportunites are knocking right now, but instead of knocking one compeltely, I'll attempt both and see what happens. Otherwise, I might not be fair to myself. But I really want the decision to be easy, so hopefully it will be.
I have Guido's Song stuck in my head.
I'm going out with Joshy tonight.
Sometimes I don't want to deal with shit.
I would like to go outside.
Just in case you were curious.
It's ok if I don't please everyone; things are forgiven, forgotten and we move on. This is a difficult realization for me because I have always been one that needs to please everyone. It's virtually impossible, however, because I have a wonderful group of friends who all have different needs. What is important is that I feel confident in my decisions and my actions and that way, I won't feel guilty or unreliable.
The past is just as important as the present and the future. I have loved (and lived in) the past a lot over the years, but I never really focused on it blending into the present. (This is something that I know will not make sense to me in a few weeks, but I'm still going). What is important is that I honor the past, but don't live in it. Now I say "honor" it because I don't want to attempt to re-create what happened or what was felt in the past; I don't want to press the memories. Instead, I want to listen to the past and learn from it. Just because there was a jump in time doesn't mean that everything was forgotten.
When opportunity comes knocking, don't run away. It's happened a few times now - I haven't felt like doing something the moment that it was presented to me, so I push it aside. Stupid. I have learned that you never know what will happen and that I should try everything with an open mind. What is important is that I get as many experiences as I can, open myself up to anything that comes my way and see what happens. If I never try, I'll never know.
If I'm actually not ready, don't force it. I have learned when to push myself and when I'm just not ready for certain things. Some people say that every experience is a good one, but if my heart isn't into it at all, if I honestly have no interest, if doing something will not make me happier, then I don't see the point. There is a delicate balance between apathy and being uninspired and I am starting to see the difference.
When one door closes, another one opens. There have been a few major disappointments for me in the last few months but instead of dwelling, I let myself be upset for a little while and then I moved on. I saw one door closing but then I looked around and realized how positive the change could really be. I knew how wonderful of a change it would be for one and for a while I was just focussing on what I would do next. Then I got over it and got re-motivated. It felt wonderful. What is important is that I didn't let myself be consumed by the disappointment and that I turned it around.
Opportunites are knocking right now, but instead of knocking one compeltely, I'll attempt both and see what happens. Otherwise, I might not be fair to myself. But I really want the decision to be easy, so hopefully it will be.
I have Guido's Song stuck in my head.
I'm going out with Joshy tonight.
Sometimes I don't want to deal with shit.
I would like to go outside.
Just in case you were curious.
posted by Rae at 12:27 PM
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